Pages from a Oathbreaker
I didn't want this
I didn't want any of that
I never wanted to be a homeless bastard, nor a traitor, I never wanted to break vows and betray the one I loved.
all I wanted was to be considered worthy in the arrogance that I was already worthy.
but I wasn't,
I wasn't worthy of anything, deserving and being worthy are not the same thing and I understood it too late,
I will never be a knight, I have to accept it, I have to accept that that being I called father was right, I should never have been born.
but now I'm here, in this world that doesn't want me, and I don't know what to do with this disgusting life of mine
Niamh
she hates me
and she does well
Aedan deserves hate, disgust, betrayal, he deserves death, and I am too cowardly to give it to him
maybe a lucky goblin will succeed, or a drow, a pirate, someone will be able to give him what he truly deserves
until then-