Re: A Tinkerer's Trademarked Treatise of Transmutation
Posted: Thu Aug 31, 2017 8:20 pm
You were not prepared, there is no shame in that, the only shame is in failing to prepare after ~ Cordorian High Chancellor Elwood Thron
Elwood says I’m not a politician. And, he’s right. I’m good at a lot of things, but playing that game was not one of them. It still surprises me that you can try to do good for a place and all everyone cares about is the unimportant details rather than the bigger picture.
None the less, I’m trying to improve the parts of me that need in as my double begins to turn on the pressure. She said it's coming. I’m just not sure how long I have. It has to be a gradual fall. She won’t believe me if it is too easy for her to corrupt me, so I’ve asked people I know who can help me with that. Eventually, it’s going to come to a point where I have to do something I don’t want to do and that’s what I’m most worried about.
Well, the part that I wrote from the past few days isn’t relevant anymore. I was foolish not to realize that while my double was emotionally invested in my fall and I may fool her, it was her superior who saw right through me. Luckily, Jadoth was able to pull me back and not a moment too soon.
Note to self: Refrain from future attempts at scrying. I’m not trained enough to attempt it and with the difficultly I am having to recognize reality from illusion, I must have teleported there instead of just viewed the location.
And, so now what? People are changing before my eyes, my new home has been ransacked, and all hope I had to work from the inside is now lost. We’ll have to hope this ‘bookmark’ that was left behind will help us find this location again.
She's promised payback against me and I have no idea what that could be...
It’s hard to move forward when this consumes your entire thought process, but I’m finding moments of clarity in the day to try to focus on other projects.
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Appendix A.28
I’ve spend some time finishing a commission from another gnome. He wanted a device similar to S.H.O.C.K. though upscaled to a much larger size (six times, in fact). I will need to ensure there to be an acceptable use clause to make sure the device is not used for vile purposes.
Elwood says I’m not a politician. And, he’s right. I’m good at a lot of things, but playing that game was not one of them. It still surprises me that you can try to do good for a place and all everyone cares about is the unimportant details rather than the bigger picture.
None the less, I’m trying to improve the parts of me that need in as my double begins to turn on the pressure. She said it's coming. I’m just not sure how long I have. It has to be a gradual fall. She won’t believe me if it is too easy for her to corrupt me, so I’ve asked people I know who can help me with that. Eventually, it’s going to come to a point where I have to do something I don’t want to do and that’s what I’m most worried about.
Well, the part that I wrote from the past few days isn’t relevant anymore. I was foolish not to realize that while my double was emotionally invested in my fall and I may fool her, it was her superior who saw right through me. Luckily, Jadoth was able to pull me back and not a moment too soon.
Note to self: Refrain from future attempts at scrying. I’m not trained enough to attempt it and with the difficultly I am having to recognize reality from illusion, I must have teleported there instead of just viewed the location.
And, so now what? People are changing before my eyes, my new home has been ransacked, and all hope I had to work from the inside is now lost. We’ll have to hope this ‘bookmark’ that was left behind will help us find this location again.
She's promised payback against me and I have no idea what that could be...
It’s hard to move forward when this consumes your entire thought process, but I’m finding moments of clarity in the day to try to focus on other projects.
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Appendix A.28
I’ve spend some time finishing a commission from another gnome. He wanted a device similar to S.H.O.C.K. though upscaled to a much larger size (six times, in fact). I will need to ensure there to be an acceptable use clause to make sure the device is not used for vile purposes.